Its been a while

Hey guys,

I know its been a couple of months since I have posted. Even though I am sure you would like to be up to date with every single aspect of my life (haha), I think I shall spare you.

I have been sick and in bed with a cold for the last two days. This has given me some time for much needed thought. With classes being over, having started a new job, and moving next week, I think that this cold came at a very good time.

Today, I listened to a wonderful song by one of the young ladies that I mentored in Midland. She is 15 and I can't believe it. I am blessed to have known her and all of the other young ladies there. I realize that at almost 22 years old, I have to call these teens "young ladies," because that is what they are! Wow, nothing like a reality check. That was not what I wanted to write about, but it was a good segue into what I do have to say.

My life to this point has been set on serving God in any way that I can. I have been the young lady who is known for her prudence and knowledge of Jesus among my peers. But what have I gained in this other than the esteem and pride? Nothing. I have nothing except for my relationship with Papa God, my Beloved Husband Jesus Christ, and my Wise Comforter The Holy Spirit. Even these relationships are not where I would think that they should be.

I have succumb to laziness, among other falsities and sins. I have come to know that if you give the devil an inch, he will take complete control. So what to do now? I have to stay perfect...or do I? What does it mean to love God and people the same way Jesus does? It means getting down in the nitty gritty with the unlovely people. Its easy to love the wonderful grandmother figure in church. Its easy to love those who have taken you into their arms and called you theirs.

But what does it look like to love the smelly, sarcastic, harsh individuals that Papa loves to send our way? It means that we get a free ticket to be polished for Jesus. It means that we get to mount up on wings as Eagles, run and not get weary, walk and not faint. It means that our hearts are being conformed even more into the image of God. And it means that we will see in ourselves, as others around us will see, that we are not perfect. We will all see how Eden is not perfect nor righteous in any way except for what she has inherited from Jesus himself.

Let me tell you brothers and sisters, please look into the Eyes of Jesus. Look upon our savior and see that He is looking right at YOU. His heart is for YOU to know His heart. He will capture your heart, if you will only let Him.

Will you let Him?