This last week was week five of my life change. I actually made it all five days! However, because of my knees acting up, I decided to go easy and not run. It was nice to be able to use working out as a time to get away from the craziness of my life!
I realized last week that I was severely burned out. I was so tired and frustrated that I just wanted to quit school. I know that it will not boil down to actually quitting school, but this is the way I felt. With some amazing help from a couple of really wise friends (thanks Audrie and Alicia), I realized what I needed to do was to take some time away from my school work and head out of town. So Saturday, Grandma Betty and I went to Balmorhea to paint the town red and have some road time.
I realized that I want to write a book and make a CD. I know this is a little off the wall, but this has been a desire of mine for a long time. I am quite excited to see where this book/CD project is going to go!
So this week, I am going to focus on midterms and projects. Hopefully these next two weeks will not take too long to finish up.
Well, that is all I have for now.
Thanks for reading,
Eden
Monday, February 22, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
What a week!
This week has been an uphill climb. To explain this, I am going to tell you a story.
The spring of 2009 I had to take an ecology class at Sul Ross. One of the many field trips that we were able to take was to hike up Mt. Liver moor (Third tallest mountain in Texas at an elevation of 8,378 ft.) We started at the bottom and we hiked all the way up. We hiked up a steep caliche road for the first half of the journey. For those of you who know about climbing mountains, you know that climbing up steep roads is not the best way to go. It was slippery and steep-not the best for a not-in-shape gal like myself to be climbing. I was climbing with my friend Nichole, who has been an amazing friend over the last few semesters. We started the hike and withing about 200 ft had to stop to catch our breath. We kept climbing and climbing so that we could reach the top. We got left behind by the faster hikers and we were by our selves. It got to a point on this journey that we were stopping every ten steps to catch our breath and remain standing. Eventually we caught up with everyone at the midway point where the actual trail started. We rested and kept going. As soon as the group started again, we were once again by our selves. All this time, we were talking and encouraging each other to get to the top. This was the most difficult thing I have ever done physically. Eventually we got to the top and were able to share in the victory of completing the hike. As I climbed the rocks to reach the very top, I was able to see the surrounding mountains perfectly! The cool breeze rushing past was amazing!
I can honestly say that I felt more accomplishment and joy right then than I have ever before. It was so hard on my body that I felt like a feather that could be blown in the wind. The journey back down was easier, but still tricky. The caliche roads were still slippery so we had to control our pace and foot placement.
The reason why I am writing this is because I believe that the Lord showed me a picture of my journey with Him this week. Just as Nichole and I climbed up that mountain, Jesus and I have been climbing a spiritual mountain. He is always there, stopping with me when I need to rest. He is there when I need to vent about how hard this is. He is still around when I decide weather to keep going or to head back down. He said that the day is coming when we will be able to reach the top and experience the joy that comes with it. As for now, we are climbing this mountain together, all the while getting to know each other.
As far as working out is concerned, I walked/ran two days and did Pilate's for two days. I took today (Friday) off because of a sore knee that I had yesterday and also because of sheer exhaustion. I will start up again on Monday.
This up hill battle has shown up over the last couple of weeks in several ways. The main way is that I have felt like I have no control over anything any more. I guess that this is a good thing as I should not be controlling and micro managing my life. I have felt like God is far away and has almost forgotten about me. I know that this is not true, but feelings are feelings and I cannot ignore them. I am learning to face the truth and proclaim it over myself daily.
Praise be to God who reigns on High! I am able to find victory in Him because He has already won all battles!
The spring of 2009 I had to take an ecology class at Sul Ross. One of the many field trips that we were able to take was to hike up Mt. Liver moor (Third tallest mountain in Texas at an elevation of 8,378 ft.) We started at the bottom and we hiked all the way up. We hiked up a steep caliche road for the first half of the journey. For those of you who know about climbing mountains, you know that climbing up steep roads is not the best way to go. It was slippery and steep-not the best for a not-in-shape gal like myself to be climbing. I was climbing with my friend Nichole, who has been an amazing friend over the last few semesters. We started the hike and withing about 200 ft had to stop to catch our breath. We kept climbing and climbing so that we could reach the top. We got left behind by the faster hikers and we were by our selves. It got to a point on this journey that we were stopping every ten steps to catch our breath and remain standing. Eventually we caught up with everyone at the midway point where the actual trail started. We rested and kept going. As soon as the group started again, we were once again by our selves. All this time, we were talking and encouraging each other to get to the top. This was the most difficult thing I have ever done physically. Eventually we got to the top and were able to share in the victory of completing the hike. As I climbed the rocks to reach the very top, I was able to see the surrounding mountains perfectly! The cool breeze rushing past was amazing!
I can honestly say that I felt more accomplishment and joy right then than I have ever before. It was so hard on my body that I felt like a feather that could be blown in the wind. The journey back down was easier, but still tricky. The caliche roads were still slippery so we had to control our pace and foot placement.
The reason why I am writing this is because I believe that the Lord showed me a picture of my journey with Him this week. Just as Nichole and I climbed up that mountain, Jesus and I have been climbing a spiritual mountain. He is always there, stopping with me when I need to rest. He is there when I need to vent about how hard this is. He is still around when I decide weather to keep going or to head back down. He said that the day is coming when we will be able to reach the top and experience the joy that comes with it. As for now, we are climbing this mountain together, all the while getting to know each other.
As far as working out is concerned, I walked/ran two days and did Pilate's for two days. I took today (Friday) off because of a sore knee that I had yesterday and also because of sheer exhaustion. I will start up again on Monday.
This up hill battle has shown up over the last couple of weeks in several ways. The main way is that I have felt like I have no control over anything any more. I guess that this is a good thing as I should not be controlling and micro managing my life. I have felt like God is far away and has almost forgotten about me. I know that this is not true, but feelings are feelings and I cannot ignore them. I am learning to face the truth and proclaim it over myself daily.
Praise be to God who reigns on High! I am able to find victory in Him because He has already won all battles!
Monday, February 8, 2010
Week Three...Hit or miss
This last week was my third week of working out! I would love to say that I was out there all five days, but sadly I was not. We went walking/running on Wednesday and I actually was able to run a full half mile without stopping! This was a huge accomplishment for me as I realizes when I was done that I could have gone so much further. Friday was another day of walking/running and again was able to run another half mile. These were the only two days that I got out there and actually worked out. I guess that the laziness factor played into that. However, now I am back and running again as of today (Monday).
Last week was a very tough week. For several different reasons, I felt like my world was crashing down around me. I felt like God was somehow missing and didn't care any more. There was a weird depression that decided to settle in and make a home on my shoulders. I thought that the only thing in my life that I could control was working out and even that was a struggle last week. When I started having these thoughts, I realized just how much I try to control my life and other lives around me. I have left God out of the picture when it comes to who has the reigns and have left Him as my co-pilot (if even that.) This came as a huge disappointment to me and made me even more sad. But what I have learned about this is that even though I fall down, He is still there to pick me back up and tells me that He can take these burdens from me. It is not my job to take control of my life, it is His. I can't be a good daughter, friend, student, follower of the Most High God, etc. without my King Jesus taking this load from me.
When I am running, I am running in circles because we run at the track. This is such an amazing picture because I have realized that when I am trying to lead my own life without Jesus in control, I am spiritually running in circles. I can't get anywhere and the scenery never changes. It's laps after laps of running in circles, never getting to my destination. Maybe I should start running on the road for a change. Either way, I need Jesus to be the center of my world. I'm learning to say the word "No," this is a nice word when you are overbooked!
So my prayer points (for my life) this week are that I will be able to see the face of Jesus and have a heart that burns for only Him. This is a high order, but I believe that I have the right to ask. We will see how this week goes as far as running is concerned.
Be blessed might warriors,
Eden
Last week was a very tough week. For several different reasons, I felt like my world was crashing down around me. I felt like God was somehow missing and didn't care any more. There was a weird depression that decided to settle in and make a home on my shoulders. I thought that the only thing in my life that I could control was working out and even that was a struggle last week. When I started having these thoughts, I realized just how much I try to control my life and other lives around me. I have left God out of the picture when it comes to who has the reigns and have left Him as my co-pilot (if even that.) This came as a huge disappointment to me and made me even more sad. But what I have learned about this is that even though I fall down, He is still there to pick me back up and tells me that He can take these burdens from me. It is not my job to take control of my life, it is His. I can't be a good daughter, friend, student, follower of the Most High God, etc. without my King Jesus taking this load from me.
When I am running, I am running in circles because we run at the track. This is such an amazing picture because I have realized that when I am trying to lead my own life without Jesus in control, I am spiritually running in circles. I can't get anywhere and the scenery never changes. It's laps after laps of running in circles, never getting to my destination. Maybe I should start running on the road for a change. Either way, I need Jesus to be the center of my world. I'm learning to say the word "No," this is a nice word when you are overbooked!
So my prayer points (for my life) this week are that I will be able to see the face of Jesus and have a heart that burns for only Him. This is a high order, but I believe that I have the right to ask. We will see how this week goes as far as running is concerned.
Be blessed might warriors,
Eden
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