Week Three...Hit or miss

This last week was my third week of working out! I would love to say that I was out there all five days, but sadly I was not. We went walking/running on Wednesday and I actually was able to run a full half mile without stopping! This was a huge accomplishment for me as I realizes when I was done that I could have gone so much further. Friday was another day of walking/running and again was able to run another half mile. These were the only two days that I got out there and actually worked out. I guess that the laziness factor played into that. However, now I am back and running again as of today (Monday).

Last week was a very tough week. For several different reasons, I felt like my world was crashing down around me. I felt like God was somehow missing and didn't care any more. There was a weird depression that decided to settle in and make a home on my shoulders. I thought that the only thing in my life that I could control was working out and even that was a struggle last week. When I started having these thoughts, I realized just how much I try to control my life and other lives around me. I have left God out of the picture when it comes to who has the reigns and have left Him as my co-pilot (if even that.) This came as a huge disappointment to me and made me even more sad. But what I have learned about this is that even though I fall down, He is still there to pick me back up and tells me that He can take these burdens from me. It is not my job to take control of my life, it is His. I can't be a good daughter, friend, student, follower of the Most High God, etc. without my King Jesus taking this load from me.

When I am running, I am running in circles because we run at the track. This is such an amazing picture because I have realized that when I am trying to lead my own life without Jesus in control, I am spiritually running in circles. I can't get anywhere and the scenery never changes. It's laps after laps of running in circles, never getting to my destination. Maybe I should start running on the road for a change. Either way, I need Jesus to be the center of my world. I'm learning to say the word "No," this is a nice word when you are overbooked!

So my prayer points (for my life) this week are that I will be able to see the face of Jesus and have a heart that burns for only Him. This is a high order, but I believe that I have the right to ask. We will see how this week goes as far as running is concerned.

Be blessed might warriors,
Eden